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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-13 08:59 pm

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What a day, huh? I feel like every time I try to gather my thoughts about it, I stumble across some news I haven't seen yet. I imagine a lot will change in the next few days too. I guess I'll just say for now that it's good, albeit in a bittersweet sense, to see something happening. Just. Some degree of accountability for someone.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-13 02:49 pm
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Into the Void: return to the fold edition

1. To recap, Monday night the horrible leak which had been growing and growing in the boys' bedroom ceiling became more horrible and after a really scary night of buckets and pails and bins and drip-drip-drip which drove me partially insane, and a morning which including sleeping on in the car, the roof caved in.

So I fled to an extended stay hotel. I thought the boys would come with me, but they didn't want to. They stayed with their father.

So contractors came and did an estimate, and then they came and fixed the enormous hole in the ceiling and the nasty wall of mold which was in the boys' closet. So they've had 2 nights of no leaks, so I've come back home.

I felt like I was Julia Roberts in Sleeping with the Enemy or a fugitive or something. In a liminal state of neither here nor there. The closest eating place was Chick-fil-a but I drove to get a tuna sub. It's PRIDE month, goddammit, no homophobic waffle fries (or peach milkshake, which sounds even better) for you! I didn't turn on the TV either the whole time. I think some people live there because the school bus came. And I heard kids and saw a cat in a window. Today is the last full day of school for the boys. They have three half days next week.

2. Today is FESTA day which is the 12th anniversary of the debut of BTS and last night in Seoul, jhope had a concert and all seven were in attendance, including SUGA!!! So it is a very good day.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-13 11:13 am
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Collage Journaling: more peach for June

I did this one before the chaos with the ceiling. I like the three jars on the other page of the planner so I included them in the scan. Still going with the peach theme for June.

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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-12 08:54 pm

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I feel sick with anxiety. I don't know what kind of news I should expect to wake up to tomorrow. The naive part of me keeps thinking, someone has to do something now. But of course these last couple of years have shown us they don't.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-12 07:38 pm

I is for [Requiescat] In Pace

Title: I is for [Requiescat] In Pace
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD)
Rating: Gen
Notes: Angst, part 5 of Time Loop: Reichenbach, set during "The Final Problem, this is a linked series of ficlets in which Watson relives Reichenbach based on theories collated in The Annotated Sherlock Holmes about what happened on that day.
Length: 500
Characters: Holmes & Watson
Prompt: acidic
Warning: Major Character Death
Summary: Watson wakes up on 4 May 1891 in Switzerland with Holmes (for the fifth times) and elects not to accompany Holmes to the Falls.

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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-12 07:01 pm

My ficlet: I is for Indurate

Title: I is for Indurate
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD)
Rating: Gen
Notes: Angst, part 4 of Time Loop: Reichenbach, set during "The Final Problem, this is a linked series of ficlets in which Watson relives Reichenbach based on theories collated in The Annotated Sherlock Holmes about what happened on that day.
Length: 500
Characters: Holmes & Watson & Moriarty
Prompt: selcouth
Summary: Watson wakes up on 4 May 1891 in Switzerland with Holmes and discovers Holmes has set a trap for Moriarty.

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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-12 06:15 pm

My ficlet: I is for Incarnate

Title: I is for Incarnate
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD)
Rating: Gen
Notes: Angst, part 3 of Time Loop: Reichenbach, set during "The Final Problem, this is a linked series of ficlets in which Watson relives Reichenbach based on theories collated in The Annotated Sherlock Holmes about what happened on that day.
Length: 500
Characters: Holmes & Watson & Moriarty & Moran
Prompt: timid
Warning: Major Character Death, elements of the supernatural
Summary: Watson wakes up on 4 May 1891 in Switzerland with Holmes and discovers Moriarty more than what he seems.

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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-12 03:25 pm

Poet's Corner: Anne Hathaway by Carol Ann Duffy

Anne Hathaway by Carol Ann Duffy

Item I gyve unto my wief my second best bed…
(from Shakespeare’s will)

The bed we loved in was a spinning world
of forests, castles, torchlight, cliff-tops, seas
where he would dive for pearls. My lover’s words
were shooting stars which fell to earth as kisses
on these lips; my body now a softer rhyme
to his, now echo, assonance; his touch
a verb dancing in the centre of a noun.
Some nights I dreamed he’d written me, the bed
a page beneath his writer’s hands. Romance
and drama played by touch, by scent, by taste.
In the other bed, the best, our guests dozed on,
dribbling their prose. My living laughing love –
I hold him in the casket of my widow’s head
as he held me upon that next best bed.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-12 03:17 pm

My poem & Rilke

So I am a week behind on my 52 poem challenge. Last week the prompt was to write a poem about a famous person (who is dead) and the focus is on a small incident in their lives. So I chose Rilke and found an anecdote about how he had received a business letter and was composing a response, pacing near the castle where he was staying, and the first line of the first of the Duino Elegies came to him. So that's what I wrote about.


Dear Sir: Regarding a matter which requires your urgent attention... by okapi

The letter arrived in the morning post.
The envelope was dull, the lettering
was careful and upright. The poet sighed.
He slit the shroud, unfolded the dead words,
and read and sighed again. It must be deal with.
Sums would be required. On paper too fine
for the purpose, he began then stopped, stood,
and left, marching from castle to bastions
overlooking the sea, he paced the length,
back and forth, as the strong bora wind blew,
his mind was full of numbers and figures,
back and forth, he paced, back and forth until—
he heard it
on the roar—
“Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels’
hierarchies
?”
by nightfall, there would be a birth, a verse
long-awaited as well as a piece
of correspondence, dull, careful, upright
left unanswered on the edge of a desk.


---

And here is the first stanza of the first elegy of the Duino Elegies

from The First Elegy by Rainer Maria Rilke [trans. Stephen Mitchell}

Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels' hierarchies?
and even if one of them pressed me suddenly against his heart:
I would be consumed in that overwhelming existence.
For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we are still just able to endure,
and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us.
Every angel is terrifying.
And so I hold myself back and swallow the call-note of my dark sobbing.
Ah, whom can we ever turn to in our need?
Not angels, not humans, and already the knowing animals are aware
that we are not really at home in our interpreted world.
Perhaps there remains for us some tree on a hillside, which every day we can take into our vision;
there remains for us yesterday's street and the loyalty of a habit so much at ease
when it stayed with us that it moved in and never left.
Oh and night: there is night, when a wind full of infinite space gnaws at our faces.
Whom would it not remain for--that longed-after, mildly disillusioning presence,
which the solitary heart so painfully meets.
Is it any less difficult for lovers?
But they keep on using each other to hide their own fate.
Don't you know yet?
Fling the emptiness out of your arms into the spaces we breathe;
perhaps the birds will feel the expanded air with more passionate flying.
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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-11 09:15 pm

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Hey, y'know what really sucks when you're trying to ride out a headache of any kind? Fire alarms being repeatedly set off so inspectors can make sure they're working in every apartment. Peppercorn wasn't happy about it either, poor thing, but at least I was here for her.

Yeah, I ended up calling out again. Woke up with awful pain even though it was ebbing by last night. It faded before too terribly long to more of a pressure but that pressure was right behind my eyes. I could hardly see, never mind focus my vision. It's too bad since I felt well enough to go in for a half day but looking at things, especially on a computer screen, is kinda most of my job, lol. Took a nap and woke up with my eyes clear but it was too late to bother by then. At least I know I'm good to go for tomorrow.

Not really the point of being home but I was able to get some crochet done even when my eyes were wonky and that helped me to feel less restless. I've started working on turning those leftover mini-skeins into a blanket like I talked about. I think I might get some doll/plushie clothes out of them too. I forgot how much I like some of these colors, tbh, even if I no longer like the yarn itself. Gonna have to try to find similar options in a better quality product.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-11 05:03 pm
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Word: Skookum

This Wednesday's word is brought to you via new DW friend [personal profile] daryl_wor:

skookum

A lot of different definitions:

adjective

1. marked by strength or power
2. marked by excellent quality, first-rate
3. reliable or hard-working.

noun

1. an evil spirit or a woodland monster

origins

Chinook Jargon. Chinook Jargon developed as a language among Indigenous peoples and European traders in the Pacific Northwest (of the US), particularly around the Columbia River. It emerged in the late 18th century, primarily as a means of communication in trade, and incorporated elements from various languages, including Chinook, French, and English.
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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-10 08:51 pm

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Maybe I was more worried about the fire safety inspection than I thought because I woke up today with a nasty, nauseous headache that turned into a migraine. Ended up calling out. I still don't feel great now, tbh.

Possibly the worst part, though? I tried to put a positive spin on it, thinking that I'd at least be home to set Peppercorn free after the inspectors came through. Then, when I double-checked the time? I realized I'd misread or misremembered the notice-- the inspection is tomorrow. Go figure!
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-10 01:24 pm

Views & News: the sky is actually falling edition

1. Last night there was a massive leak in the boys' bedroom and I had every bucket, trash bin, baking sheet, and towel out. We called the emergency maintenance twice and got an AI voice telling us that it sounded like something that could be dealt with during business hour. Fuck you, you miserable pieces of shit.

So the drip-drip-drip all night drove me insane.

We even banged on the door upstairs but she wouldn't open the door!

I put the boys in my bed and I slept on the floor for about 2 hours. Then around 430, I got up, meditated, made the boys' lunches and packed a bag and went to the car. And slept for about an hour.

The ceiling crashed in about 7 am as the boys were getting ready for school. It's a mess. It's a complete and utter shite fest.

Then I fled and let the boys' father handle the maintenance and building management.

tw: cutting )

We had put in maintenance requests about the leak but of course they ignored them.

I am getting sleepy so I may go back to the car and take a nap. I suppose I could take a nap in the library but...I feel like getting in the car and going to a hotel and starting fresh with a new name and a new identity.

2. The job hasn't called me back, but I think I submitted all the paperwork.

This is my new favorite YT Garron Noone, the Irishman.

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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-09 07:33 pm

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Fire safety inspection tomorrow. Aaand I've got stuff all over the place because of being partway into reorganizing-- not only my room either. And my mom is out of town, so it's on me.

I wish they would give more advance notice of these things. Be nice if they did them on the weekend, too, even though I get why they don't. S'just frustrating. I hate having to leave the front door unlocked, I hate having to lock Peppercorn up all day and I hate people being in here when I'm not here. Blergh. Might or might not be a good idea but I left the tidying up for the morning. My head was just not there tonight and I knew if I started, I was going to be so inefficient as to keep myself awake later than I should and probably still not get things done to my satisfaction. Even if getting things done mostly means piling the clutter into my closet. Some sleep and the urgency of the morning will help me power through it. Maybe I can convince my sister to hang out here with the kids until the inspectors come and go, so she can lock up and set Peppercorn free.
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-09 05:53 pm

My ficlet: I is for Innocent

Title: I is for Innocent
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD)
Rating: Gen
Warning: Major Character Death
Notes: Angst, part 2 of Time Loop: Reichenbach, set during "The Final Problem, this is a linked series of ficlets in which Watson relives Reichenbach based on theories collated in The Annotated Sherlock Holmes about what happened on that day.
Warnings: Drug use, needles, Murder, Suicide, please don't read if the idea of Holmes killing an innocent person and himself during a cocaine binge will upset you.
Length: 500
Characters: Holmes & Watson
Prompt:
Summary: Watson wakes up (again) on 4 May 1891 in Switzerland with Holmes and discovers Holmes' mind is fatally addled by cocaine.

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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-09 05:05 pm

My ficlet: I is for Imaginary

Title: I is for Imaginary
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD)
Rating: Gen
Notes: Angst, part 1 of Time Loop: Reichenbach, set during "The Final Problem, this is a linked series of ficlets in which Watson relives Reichenbach based on theories collated in The Annotated Sherlock Holmes about what happened on that day.
Length: 500
Characters: Holmes & Watson
Prompt:
Summary: Watson wakes up on 4 May 1891 in Switzerland with Holmes and discovers Moriarty is his own invention.

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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-09 11:29 am
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Music Monday: medieval ambient

I can't listen to any music with lyrics when I am writing so I search out these kinds of channels on YT.

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dustbunny105 ([personal profile] dustbunny105) wrote2025-06-08 07:52 pm

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The Madleen has been hijacked and the activists aboard, including a member of EU Parliment, have been kidnapped by the Israeli military. Their communications were jammed, they were attacked with chemical weapons and they were ordered to throw their phones into the sea. I have no doubt in my mind that the aid they were carrying will be destroyed, if it hasn't been already. I'm unclear whether this assault took place in Egyptian, Palestinian or international waters but the fact either way is that Israel has no right to divert this mission. Not that it frikkin matters.

We all saw something like this coming but it's still so disheartening to see it happen. These activists come from France, Spain, Sweden, Germany, Brazil, Netherlands and Turkey. What we all can do now, what they've asked us to do, is to put pressure on their foreign ministries. The more eyes on them, the safer they'll be until their release.

French:
Email: alertes.cdc@diplomatie.gouv.fr & courrier.scec@diplomatie.gouv.fr
FB: France Diplomatie & Jean-Noël Barot
IG: [profile] francediplo & [profile] jeannoelbarot
Twitter: [profile] francediplo_en & [profile] francediplo & [profile] jnbarot

Brazilian
Email: portal@itamaraty.gov.br
FB: Ministerio das relacoes exteriroes
IG: [profile] itamaratygovbr
Twitter: ItamaratyGovBr

Spanish
Bsky: [profile] jmalbares & .bsky.social [bsky.social profile] exterioresgob
Email: consular@maec.es
IG : [Bad username or site: exteriores @ maec]
Twitter: [profile] spainmfa & [profile] maecgob & [profile] jmalbares

Swedish
FB: SweMFA
IG: [profile] swedishmfa
Twitter: [profile] swemfa
Website: https://government.se/contacts/

Dutch
IG : [profile] minbz
FB : ministeriebz
Twitter: [profile] dutchmfa

Turkish
IG : [profile] tcdisisleri
FB : T.C. Dışişleri Bakanlığı
Twitter: [profile] mfaturkiye

German
IG: [profile] auswaertigesamt
FB: Auswärtiges Amt
Twitter: [profile] germanydiplo
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stonepicnicking_okapi ([personal profile] stonepicnicking_okapi) wrote2025-06-08 02:26 pm
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Sherlock Sunday: The Field Bazaar

The great thing about being a fan is unearthing canon you've never heard of. I never expected such a thing with the Sherlock Holmes fandom but here we are.

This is the full text of is a very short story written by Arthur Conan Doyle first published in the Bazaar number of the Student on 20 November 1896. The Bazaar was held to raise money required to erect a pavilion and complete the equipment of a 13-acre field that had been recently purchased for the University of Edinburgh.

Full text of The Field Bazaar )
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smallhobbit ([personal profile] smallhobbit) wrote2025-06-08 01:28 pm
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30 Days Wild - Week One

As I said in a recent post I'm planning on keeping a photo journal, so here are Week 1's photos:

30 Days Wild - Week One )